Jiawen

2010-03-11T17:51:00.001-08:00

i think i have forgotten that my blog existed. i had a random thought which pass through my mind, what have i been doing after my a level has passed! it was like near 4 months and my answer is nothing. i have basically play ( abit), work (abit) and the rest of the time was doing nothing. argh!! i have wasted it away.. to think of it now it is such a waste. but what can i do?

i shall not reveal my results here. those who know me well enough would have know about it.. i am leaving my options open either repeating j2 or sim?? till now i still have no idea. whenever i think of it, i have the feeling of going insane. this is so irritating.. but i think i am one of the lucky fews who have repeating as one of my choice:) haha.. most people or should i say my classmates only have the route to private uni. there are just pros and cons of everything. its time to sit down and do some serious thinking..

2010-02-13T17:05:00.000-08:00

i think i shall start finding a new job soon:) haha. random!

anyway, its chinese new year already. so looking forward to going my cousin house cos can eat alot of cny goodies. haha..

2010-02-07T17:15:00.000-08:00

my 10days of training and 1day of work is officially over. wonder if that day was even consider working. anyway, they ask us to go home and wait for their call as the merchandises are not not ready and we had way way way too many staff in the store. yet when they call me to work, i did not pick up their call-.- i was so frustrated with myself la cos i was way too bored staying at home and rotting my time away. sians! i hope they will call me again soon and i hope i will pick up their call. anyw, i waited for them for almost a week before they call-.- hais.. not fated ba!

2010-01-15T23:28:00.001-08:00

i'm like going to start work next week le. its like FINALLY. life is just too boring to let it rot away. anyway, my first 2 days are at jurong. oh my no!! and i have to reach at 8. isn't it like school hours or should i say even earlier?

so this week past by in a blur again! why does time pass so fast with each year pass by! anyway, i went with weeling to suntec. we went for lunch and did some window-shopping and of course we talk for hours. haha!! i think the best person to gossip with or should i simply put bitch with is still OLIVIA PHUA. haha we bitch about like nobody buisness and even when the person is directly behind us. but who cares!! haha:) opps! i met up with my dearly Hougang Sec peeps. it has been a long long time since i love them and they are still the same. and their nickname from seondary school are still alive and still making a joke out of them. i miss all the laughters during our recess. it just seems so alien so far from the time we graduated. everybody going on their different paths and carving out their carrers. and the next will be receiving invitation for their marriages. i wonder who will be the first huh!! hahas.

Since we approach this topic on friendship, i have a sudden urge to write more. haha!! i think my life had been great so far. i have known so many wonderful people regardless in my secondary, jc or even church. these are the people who have stand with me through thick and thin. i'm really blessed with such great friends. anyway, i simply do not think friendships are fragile like what some said. like i said before friends are made from the bottom of our heart with sincerity and love. making a friend with a motive in mind, you can't simply categorize yourself as a friend. you 're just a traitor. most of my jc friends are people who will be there for each other although we are not academically-inclined but at least we tried our very best to help each other regardless if the problem lies in studies, relationships whatsoever.. we're able to pour our hearts out to them and share our joy and sorrows with one another. this is what i call friendship instead of you finding ways to coup up lies and more lies to cover the one before. although we may not directly accuse of you lying, we do not want to burst your ego but deep down we know all the lies and there's no point lying. friends tell each other the truth no matter how bad it is.

i finally understand why jc tutors said that jc friends are friends whom you will have for your life in future. i finally understand this although i had graduated months ago. haha.. i feel fortunate for having such a wonderful group of friends where we would meet up often. we would chat about our lives and like no tomorrow.

so who says friendships are fragile? it may be so! but it ultimately depends on you. you are the only person who can change your perception of friends and friends perception towards you.

2010-01-07T21:21:00.000-08:00

its getting a little or should i say a lot boring? life with such a long long holiday yet when we yearn for, holidays are so short. its so unfair la. most people start sch on 4 or 11 jan. but i still have a long break. sometimes i wish i can start school then so i can gossip with my friends. but upon thinking of all those tutorials behind the school work, **faints. i would just wish that its holiday. so irony right?

anyw, this week is kinds boring. i played bball with my church friends. haha. it was fun!! and spend the rest of my time slacking at home, wandering around aimlessly with nothing to do. i'm not so used to having so much time in my hands with nothing to do. cos we singaporeans are so capable of multi-tasking.

i'm so looking forward to the start of my job as least it helps me to kill some time off. but then, i still have to wait until slightly after a week. O level result is coming out next monday. goodluck people, i hope that you will be able to achieve your desired results. remember: you reap what you sow!

2010-01-01T05:21:00.000-08:00

today is new year's day again!! yeah. for 2010. time flies huh and ppl we gonna be 19 this year. argh!! that sounds so old. i'm not going to make any new year's resolution this year. you guys must be wondering why. this is because... if that resolution is so important, why should we wait for until new year to make that resolution. we could have make it any where, anytime:) this is according to gabriel.

anyway, this year i had a chalet at east coast park countdown new year with the church people. it was fun. haha:) we could see like fireworks from cityhall(singapore), malaysia, indonesia, ferries! and even airplanes. we were like wow!! its really an eye-opener! i hope that i'll have a chance to see it every year. oh man! anyway, i didnt catch much sleep last night. the beds was infested with bed bugs ( exaggerated!) and there were so many bodies piling up on the bed. so i dont actually have any place to catch my beauty sleep. so i went to talk to the others. and while we were talking our group grew larger an larger!! hahas.. we were not lazing around complaining or gossiping. we were actually talking about life. the bigger pictures, relationships. most of it was talk by gabriel. and he really leave a big space for me to ponder my thoughts. hais><

anyway, i saw LEE CHUAN TONG today. haha:) so happy:)

anyway, happy new year people!

2009-12-21T19:29:00.001-08:00

i'm back from korea:) and camp!! whoa.. it like staying away from house almost 2 weeks. my life is sure busy. haha!! i'll update more abt this 2 major event since my hols have started!! picts will be uploaded on fb, i'm waiting for people to tag me instead of uploading some. this is pure laziness. haha!!

its one of the awesome camp i've been to. with bunk beds, air-con in the room and heater in the showers (i'm so afraid of bathing in the cold water, argh!!). all these makes it one of the best camps on my list. haha.. not forgetting my wonderful campers and groupmates. haha!!

about korea: its my second time been there. i have quite a different experience because we have more people going there together so it means more more more fun. haha!! it was really cold, shivering from head to toe but it wasnt that bad comparing to the previous year. we did stupid things, funny things there. haha:) like moving the hotel beds from 1 room to another being caught red-handed by the hotel manager, we wore skiing clothes with slippers from the hotel out in the freezing weather... etc. these were surely crazy stuff but memorable.. and i spend like $200. and when i look at the stuff i bought i was wondering : did i really spend $200? cos the stuff i bought home was way way way too little!! i think i must have spend all my money eating the delcacies there.. but i was still shocked by how quickly i spend my $$.. if i ever did that in singapore, i think my mom will disown me.. haha!!

anyway, christmas is just around the corner!! yeah!! will be attending christmas eve dinner at church. haha!! hopefully all the camper can get back together and rock the floor. haha!! and now, i have to think of what to buy for the exchange of gifts.. i'm bad at this kind of stuff. and also a gift for my mortel.. and on christmas day, will be attending service in the morning and spend the rest of my day with my darling - OLIVIA PHUA!!!

and i havent watch NEW MOON!!!! ah...... and i have a big big secret. haha!! jialat, i have told you this:)

2009-11-30T03:14:00.000-08:00

for a start, i've just add in a few more links. haha

i did blog,k! but a few lines nia.. will be more detailed in my next post..
byes!!

2009-11-30T03:10:00.000-08:00

This marks freedom. A level is officially over ( actually was slightly more than a week ago for me). I promise some of you that i'll update my blog, so here i am..

A LEVEL
A level has gone by like a breeze. i have learn to THINK FAST and WRITE FAST! haha:) It acn either strengthen friendship bonds or weakens them tremendously to a super large extent. i think i experience both huh or should i say most of us! it really is a test of friendship according to what many tutors have said. i'm glad that i have made many good friends along the way such as jialat, jiaxin, mingyu, yenting, jungyi, chester, bla bla...and you. those are more significant ones:) without them i dont think i'll be able to survive in this horrendous journey which i almost gave up along the way. thank you so much guys:) its really a miracle that i have known you guys. oh how can i forget this. the tutors also play a significant role. they never gave up on a bunch of rotten apples and continued to encourage us:)

so the end of A level journey marks the start of another journey. i should start looking for jobs since i have so much free time on my hand.
NO STUDIES + NO EXAMS = NO WORRIES + NO STRESS
HAHA..

with christmas around the corner, it means meeting up with my secondary school friends!! oh god, i miss them so much. it seems like an eternity since i last saw them.. i'm so looking forward to it. at least, thats one very thing i'm looking forward to:)

oh ya, jialat is off to melb, thats why we're having peace in our ears!! haha!! but its kinds weird not hearing her high-pitched voice.. anyway, if you happen to look at this post, i have something for you:

you have plan this trip for a loooong loooong time. you wouldnt want all your efforts to go down the drain right?! must as well, go out there and have fun! its a first trip without your parents i know how hard you had gone through for your parents to grant you permission to go melb. if your thoughts on.. keep lingering, all these effort would not be worth it. to put it bluntly, must as well stay in singapore right! so go out there and have fun yea!!

2009-10-23T22:44:00.000-07:00

this is the most successful saturday in my whole entire j2 life i must say. normally, on a sat morn i will go back sch and have consultation and then mug with my friends for the fear of lying on my bed which i normally do. oh my, i've wasted so much sat away. with a level just 2 weeks away, we start to have the stress roaring at our head alr. argh!! but today, i have yet to lie on my bed. haha. and most importantly, complete some work. super duper happy:)

so many things have happen, contexts are changing. i dont know what to day now but mug hard for exams.

3 days left!! XD

will M.I.A till then...

2009-09-11T18:18:00.000-07:00

school's gonna reopen soon, really soon!! (in 2 days time). that means my hectic life will begin soon. and that means a level is coming soon. argh!! i dread the thought of it. being unprepared and everything. i shall ren!! i left 2 months to the end of it. since i've started this, might as well as this nice too huh? this "sept break", i did study(doing hw). but the hw list seem to be endless. i've counted it just 5 items. yet the quantity is like whoo!! and till today, i've yet to complete!

Olivia:

really happy that you like this =D

Jialat:

dont sad k, cheer up le la! you cannot afford to get distracted again. promos is coming. you've wasted one year le, so must CONCENTRATE and buck up hor.

2009-09-05T06:42:00.000-07:00

teacher's day celebration was on tuesday. as usual went back to hs:):) this year, many of us went back as usual despite our teachers having 'graduated'! but there's still a minority there ya. its has really really really been a long time since all of us has met up. the last time we were in such a big group should be celebrating christmas last year ba.. whoa.. time really flies, its sept now. and in another few more months its going to be christmas again:)

i miss those times
~when i chatted non-stop with my bestie despite seeing her everyday. from morning to night.
~when we cut queue at the nasi padang store. and chuan tong is always there to say dont look behind. (cos ppl would give you dirty stares)
~where we slack in the toilets and lessons are really really boring (we had bladder problems according to some of our classmates)
~during sec 3 where we stayed back to play vollleyball with Eugene and clique. haha!! its was super duper fun. the group grew from 3 initially to like more than 10
~when i first started playing netball. i was very close with michelle then.
~where we would go kovan to take neoprints. (seriously, now i think back. its a total waste of money. i dont know why its so fun back then)
~where a bunch of us would go tuition together. and we were like the noisiest group there yet we were the favourites of the teacher. all of us being elites of the maths class. i know for sure maths is the 1 subject all of us are good at.
~where we were in our white + blue uniform. we complain so much abt the attire. but now...
~where i first stepped into the prefectorial board. then i became a rebellious prefect. and then a good role model one. time can really change a person huh.
~we were teasing each other about our secret admirers. i shall not comment too much on this. ct got the worst though.
~the days where we went to hougang point to grab a lunch (its was flooded with students from our sch)
~the guys falling in love with the land shop at hougang green. i still cant understand whats so great abt it. and thats exactly the only thing they want to do after the teacher's day concert.

i really miss all these good old times. how i wish the hands of the clock would turn back. i miss all these ppl who were like so extremely fun to hang out with and are fine ladies and gentlemen. i love you guys! thanks for contributing to my life. and paint it with such beautiful colours:)

this other para is just for me to release my anger. pls dont read it if you are going to get... (i dont know what emotions)

whats wrong with me meeting up with my secondary sch mates. i seriously dont think there's anything wrong with that. i dont think there is a need to report everything to you. i didnt even tell my boyf, why should you even know? and who are you to interfere in it? i really cnt understand. i'm sorry for being so childish. nut cant you just see it from my point of view. would you rather meet up with friends whom you dont see for almost a year or would you meet up with friends you can see like a gazillion times per week. i choose the former. thats me. thats who i am. if you cant accpet it, thats too bad. i think its time for you to move on and find a better friend who can understand you better. cos in this situation i definitely cnt unserstand you. and i dont wish to do so. so what if it is because our clique is falling apart. its not like we are having fights. we were all peaceful. we can just meet up some other time. dont you know that it is very difficult to coordinate your time with poly ppl. oh, you cant understand this as most of your friends are in jc. i'm so sorry. whatever the fact is, i'm going to choose them again if i got into this situation again. accept the fact. that is whom i am. i will not get stuck here because of you, its time to move on.

2009-08-15T08:40:00.000-07:00

ps guys.

dont worry especially OLIVIA and wong JIALAT. i'm fine. i'm still me!! its just that the anger has fade away and it is now disappointment which overwhelms me. i'm super disappointed in life. thats all. and all the feelings just accumulated it in me and i couldnt tolerate it and burst!!

OLIVIA: lets not talk about this k? lets meet up soon and with the rest. really really miss the old days. x100000 you guys are still the best! touching right! haha:) its really a list long if i'm writing it down. MISS You!!

JIALAT: will tell you soon ya:) hais.. and you havent open up your blog let me see. zzz... you also cheer up yea! i always believe that there will always be a rainbow after a rain

pissing off

2009-08-14T17:55:00.000-07:00

i'm freaking pissed. i'm childish, i'm petty, whatever. thats me.. thats who i am. you just havent seen my true colours. this is the real me. it is still not too late to shake off all ties with me. with exams just round the corner, ive simply no mood to study. thanks huh!!

missing HS pals

2009-08-06T06:12:00.000-07:00

i'm so so looking forward to 28 august!! its where prelim has ended and i can meet up with people whom i miss dearly!! cant wait for that day to come. even the thought of it makes me feel so excited!! so in the mean time, i shall mug hard and play hard when the time comes:)

i felt so lost, so bored in a jc curriculum. its nothing but studying. but since i've chosen this path abt 2 yrs ago, i had to finish it, isnt it? on the surface, friendships seem to be running thick, beneath it its just a piece of wreck. the way friendships work is sort of different from sec sch. it makes me wonder if i'm weird or everybody else's weird. this was what made me stop in my tracks to think. i felt that i was still the same old me, its just that environment changes, eveything changes. and you're at a place where you're not supposed to be.
eating together, studying together, bitching together = friendship?
or is it
having fun, playing. bitching, gossiping, listening ear = friendship?

i thnk friendship is the latter. and thats where my old pals fell into that category. but jc friends are in the first. thats were the difference lies. no matter how hard i try, its useless. i cant fit to suit to there. so just let me be friendless now. its just a few more months. i'm sure i could survive in this friendless life. (i hope)
(olivia, you inspired me to write this!!)

I really happy these few days, been able to talk to my long-lost hs friends through the power of facebook which let us reunite. it sure seem that our lives were changing.i really miss our good old times yea! we should have treasure the moments in the past instead of taking it for granted:(
missing you guys!!

2009-07-31T07:28:00.000-07:00

01.08.09 Will Run!!
like last year, i 'm not running on this day. cos i helping up with the registration booth. but i did my run on trial run day already. last wed i think. with a 1hr 45 min, manage to clock 15km. it was the same like last year. didnt do any better or any worse!! haha:)to those who are running tmr, JIAYOU!! dont forget its for a cause, and i believe that you will run!! haha:):)

this week. SUPER DUPER DUPER HETIC!! i slept for like the most 5 hours each day!! omg!! i just barely manage to complete my hw let alone revising for my prelims. how ami ever going to catch up with time??

CONSTANCE CONSTANCE CONSTANCE ( so nice huh??!) luckily he dont know his way here, or else i would be dead meat. hahaha!! just be consistent in doing your work. hahah!!

and i miss all my friends in hs. i've been tagging facebook like mad just now to keep in touch woth my old friends. i'm so goona see you guys soon!! or i'll charge up to your hse!!

i'm dead tired

2009-07-16T07:36:00.000-07:00

school is far worse than usual. our timetable is shorter! i admit. BUT thats just the usual curriculum. NOT INCLUDING the extra lessons, extra consultations and extra night lessons. omg!! just thinking of this make me think that why i'm leading such a miserable life. tutors are gearing us up for the impossible- the a level. is there such a need for the extra mile, i wondered..

i rmb what mrs c tan said this afternoon, we're conserving our energy in j1 even conserving our energy till now so when are we finally making the last sprint. it may sound funny at first, but after you give it some serious thought its quite true though. we spent so much time on other irrelevant stuff thats why we complain that there's insufficeient time to study. but to what extent is this true then?

on a lighter note, basketball alumni is this sunday. so that means i have 1 day lesser to complete my hw and have to chiong it all finish by sat. and we are not allowed to take a break( a nicer word used for buying MC) on monday. its been a long while since i touched bball. i think i might have gone rusty. hoped that my stamina has not dropped alot cos i need to complete my WILL RUN (at least 10km) next wed but i have not been running on a regualr basis like last year. i trust myself that i will be able to complete it though. i even aspire to break my last year record of 15km. but i think its quite impossible huh!!

and lastly, i think i have made progress in econs. super happy:) i must give the credits to mrs sim. she forced me to sit down and study for the chapters by giving short quizes. never study for quiz= fail quiz = her screaming= scared= must study
thats what motivated my in studying for econs. haha!!

2009-07-05T09:12:00.000-07:00

to my dearest friend (you know who you are)
i feel very helpless now. i could not do anything for you yet i'm the only one who know this humongous secret of yours! i really dont know how to help you. if you dont mind, i can share with you my ears. i'm willing to lend you my shoulder too ( just dont say i too short bla bla cnt reach). haha:) if you're not willing to talk abt it, i'll not force you. but i just want you to know that i'll be there for you, k!! i hope everything will be fine. life has to go on. we cant just stop there when everything is in a mess. you have to face the reality of life! i really hope that you can pick up yourself fast. i dont want to see you being sad. thats not like you! i just want to say: i'm always there for you. everything will be fine after you have woken up from your nightmare:):):)

Moral of the story: treasure those around you or you'll live to regret!

on a lighter note,
life has been pretty blah.. for the past week. scoolwork, consultations, extra lessons, night lessons, homework and routines start all over again. what is this?! this is the so-called jc-life. hmm. went to gala dinner on sat night. the food was... it was not worth $60.

i ccant get anything done except thinking of that person. i really really hope she's fine:):)

2009-06-27T04:39:00.000-07:00

oh my tian.. school is like starting in miserable 30 hours time. argh!! i can imagine the pain when the term starts now. AND I HAVE YET TO COMPLETE MY HW!! sians... and that 30hours includes my sleeping time. oh my oh my!! and i have to attend AYG torch relay tmr. how on earth can i dig out more time??!

2009-06-24T08:53:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLIVIA PHUA!!!!

i have a few wishes for you:

1. may you be healthy always!! (the flu!! argh??!)
2. have a longlasting relationship with your prince( mr A)
3. dont be so stressed up le.. look on a brighter side. things may not be as complicated as you think it is..
4. stay cheerful like always.. you have the ability to influence the mood of the group!
5. and dont forget the poor me!!
6.ENJOY YOUR BIG BIG DAY!!

lastly,
Happy Birthday again!!

2009-06-23T17:21:00.001-07:00

i'm disappointed now.

2009-06-19T20:20:00.001-07:00

i'm lost again

2009-06-19T05:39:00.001-07:00

my teeth hurts from eating the icecream.. argh!! i wont eat them again.. i doubt i wont..

2009-06-18T23:41:00.001-07:00

There are 8 letters in your name.
Those 8 letters total to 36
There are 4 vowels and 4 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:

Chinese	Male	Either 'jade' or 'honour' or 'happy' or 'rain'.
Chinese	Female	Either 'jade' or 'honour' or 'happy' or 'rain'.

Your number is: 9

The characteristics of #9 are: Humanitarian, giving nature, selflessness, obligations, creative expression.

The expression or destiny for #9:
The expression that you exhibit is represented bythe number 9. Your talents center in humanistic interests and approaches. You like to help others as you were intended to be the 'big brother or big sister' type. You operate best when you follow your feelings and sense of compassion, and allow yourself to be sensitive to the needs of others. You work well with people, and have the potential to inspire. This suggests that you could successfully teach or counsel. Creative ability, imagination and artistic talent (often latent) of the highest order are present in this expression. It's possible that you're not using or developing all of these capabilities at this time. Some of your talents may have been used at an earlier time in your life, and some may still be latent. Be aware of your capabilities, so that you can make use of them at appropriate times.

If you are able to achieve the potential of your natural expression in this life, you are capable of much human understanding and have a lot to give to others. Your personal ambitions are likely to be maintained in a very positive perspective, never losing sight of an interest in people, and a sympathetic, tolerant, broad-minded and compassionate point of view. You are quite idealistic, and disappointed at the lack of perfection in the world. You have a strong awareness of your own feeling as well as those of others. Friendships, affection, and love are extremely important.

Undeveloped or ignored, the negative side of the 9 expression can be very selfish and self-centered. If you do not actively involve yourself with work that benefits others, you may tend to express just the opposite characteristics. It is your role to be very involved with other people and their needs, but it may be difficult for you achieve this role. Aloofness, lack of involvement, and a lack of sensitivity mark the low road of this expression.

Your Soul Urge number is: 9

A Soul Urge number of 9 means:
With a 9 Soul Urge, you want to give to others, usually in a humanitarian or philanthropic manner. You are highly motivated to give friendship, affection and love. And you are generous in giving of your knowledge and experience. You have very sharing urges, and you are likely to have a great deal to share. Your concern for others makes you a very sympathetic and generous person with a sensitive and compassionate nature.

You are able to view life in very broad and intuitive terms. You often express high ideals and an inspirational approach to life. If you are able to fully realize the potential of your motivation, you will be a very self-sacrificing person who is able to give freely without being concerned about any return or reward.

As with all human beings, you are prone to sometimes express the negative attitudes inherent to your Soul Urges. You may become too sensitive and tend to express emotions strongly at times. There can be significant conflict between higher aims and personal ambitions. You may resent the idea of giving all of the time and, in fact, if there is too much 9 energy in your nature you may reject the idea. You may often be disappointed in the lack of perfection in yourself and others.

Your Inner Dream number is: 9

An Inner Dream number of 9 means:
You dream of being creative, intellectual, and universal; the selfless humanitarian. You understand the needy and want to help them. You would love to be a person people count on for support and advice.

2009-06-14T06:29:00.000-07:00

1. Besides lips, where is ur fave spot to get kiss?
cheeks?

2. How do u feel when u woke up this morning?
cant be anymore worse!

3. Who was the last person u talked to?
bro

4. Do u consider urself to be spoiled?
nah..

5. Would you donate blood?
nice try.. i'm afraid of bleeding

6. Have u ever had a best friend from the opposite sex?
like der..

7. Do u want someone dead?- for?
what the hell!! i'm not some physcho

8. What does the last msg say?
>< watching tv while lying on mom 's bed

9. What are u thinking right now?
**intuding into my personal life huh!
i've no idea actually. i think abt a lot of matters at one time. multi-thinker?

10. Do u wish someone is right here with u now?
haha! i dont know><

11. What time did u went to bed last night?
11 plus ba

12. where did u buy the T-shirt u are wearing now?
how would i know.. bought it like so many freaking years ago le...

13. Is someone in ur mind?
you say leh..

14. who was the last person u texted?
him

there you go howleong.. the chain shall stop here after you dig out info from me><

2009-06-12T03:06:00.000-07:00

went to catch Drag Me to Hell with 1s26 '08.. haha its a horror show.. i think the director is only good at making the sound-effect which made me jump out of my skin sometimes.. other than that its still ok. its a PG show, so how horror it could get. it really makes me feel like watching NC16 or even M18 horror show. i really want to know how scary it could get. the ending was ...(No comments) and we went to makan to celebrate jiaxin's birthday and the botak head (mingwei) who need to report to camp came to celebrate with us. his hair feels really like a dog fur. haha!! and thanks jialat for spaming my email add with so many photos.. oh my tian!! didnt realize we took so many le. jiaxin: hope you have a wonderful birthday. once a again, happy birthday yea. may you be less violet and dont always box me out with our butt-_-

had school today. i had lessons continuously for 6 hours without having breakfast or anything in my stomach. and i did not feel hungry>< miss toh singled me out for a talk just now. think she saw how troubled i look. and took the time off to have a chat with me although she had to fly off in a few hours time. i'm so touched by her actions. i really appreciate such a great GP tutor i have. what she said made me cried even more. she was there to encourage me as a tutor and as a friend. she's a really emotional tutor. tears were rolling in her eyes when i cried.

2009-06-09T05:18:00.000-07:00

DEDICATED TO MY BELOVED OLIVIA PHUA LI XIAN

dearest girl. i have not forgotten you.. so stop panicking and worrying... haha!! life's has been hectic and stuff recently.. and i promised you a date on 25th june( a special day i know!!). wahahahahaha!! lets catch up then. i know you miss me alot. we shall catch up with all our gossips then, ok!! now you just have to wait patiently for the day to come. please continue to remember me until our date comes:)

2009-06-06T00:55:00.000-07:00

i finally get a good night sleep after so long, months perhaps. i went for basketball training. i felt so copper iodide( according to jiaxin) after it ends. stamina really drop like hell. played finish 2 matches cnt run le, the seniors still ran like free la. as usual, fell down a few times and had bruises>< but not very serious de. overall, it was fun.. haha!! i'm going to catch more slp soon le:)

2009-05-30T21:54:00.000-07:00

my hidden talent is : rebellion this is soso fuuny. quite true though:)

You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system.
And while this may not seem big, it can be.
It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes.
You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices. hahahs:)

i'm my own biggest fan?

At parties, you tend to like to stick to your core group of friends. You don't venture out and meet new people. very true!! i prefer sticking to myself in those worse come to worse scenarios.

You have absolutely no restraint in your life. You live life with reckless abandon. this doesnt sound like me though. i always think think think then act.

The most important thing in your life is fun. of course! who will want to live a sad life? but recently, things have changed!

You are dominant, vain, and a bit of a show off. To know you is to worship you. hahas:) i'm not too sure about this though.

Is it LIBERATION day? or is it just my wishful thinking?

2009-05-28T00:58:00.000-07:00

EXAMS ARE LIKE FINALLY OVER!!!

and you know what??!! before the exams are over, we actually have a homework list on what to do during our "holidays". its likes freaking no holidays at all. i sure will be glad if i can finish up all my homwork..

went to eat cafe cartel with wee ling today at marina.. hahas:) its been so long since we went out together and both of us yak non-stop.. i suddenly feel that i've been separated from the reality for quite sometime. its has been a long long time since i trained to the city.. i think the last time i stepped into the city was IT fair perhaps. its with olivia. oh my.. i jolly well miss that girl.. hope she read this. ps:i know you're feeling touched now yea:) haha!! date me sometime soon!

anyway guys dont bother reading whats below. its just my self-reflection.

i'm really tired. but i tried not to express it. i do not want it to affect anybody esp you. but what do i hav? sleepless nights perhaps thinking of the solutions. but what did i come up with? NOTHING!! is it apporpriate for me to hang on out there? its like i'm clinging tightly onto a monkey bar. if i let go i'll fall way way to the bottom.. a thousand feet below me and then swallowed up by the sea. its really tiring clinging on to the bar. i have no support, nothing, except myself and my willpower. but my willpower is dying off. my hands are getting slippery by each passing moment. i may just fall off anytime. now, i have even lost its purpose on why ami clinging on to monkey bar. i'm lost. i need someone to guide me.

i screwed up big time..

2009-05-20T05:34:00.001-07:00

Mid year Exam for this week is officically over and its Wednesday only. wahahhaha:) but its sure a hectic 3-day with up to 3 papers per day. let me sum up how i did do far: SCREWED BIG TIME!

GP: as usual is my obstacle cos its got to do with language
Econs P2: when i flip over the qns(a total of 5), there weren't any qns which i am familiar with. i was bascially stunned when i flip over the paper. i can imagine her blasting at me now. anyway, its my fault. cant blame anyone else. i only started econs revision 2 days before the mye, cramming 1 and a half year of work. so who can i blame, except myself??!
Maths P1: its the best paper i've done so far. hope that the results would prove me right!! i hope stats wouldnt be so hard next week!!
History: its was merely a 3hs creating my own set of history. i screw up econs very badly and history is much worse. i didnt even revise for it except during the 1hr break before the paper. so... i'm so sorry towards ms ong!! i will make it up to her during prelims hopefully!!
Chem P3: it was a total disaster. its the only subject i have been working consistently on. yet i cant even do a quarter of the paper. it was so demoralising. i was struggling with it like hell man!! i start to question whether the problem lies with me?

this is only half of exams for mye.. there's still econs p1, chem p1 &2, maths p2. i have screwed up for most exams for this week already. i cant afford to do so anymore, but time is against me. i think i need another more year in j2. with this standard, i dont think i'll be able to go anywhere. i think i'm just so dumb sometimes. no matter how hard i study the results just doesnt show. it only reflects how much i dont know. is this what studying is all about? mayb what he say is true. study smart is better than study hard! whatever!!

2009-05-10T06:38:00.000-07:00

hais.. my life is like shit now. thats the only word i can think of for now at least.. i'm so ill-prepared and when i study i'm like i don't even understand what i'm doing let alone having the soultions beside me. i feel like crying now.. i feel like giving up.. i surrender to exams!! i didnt feel like this in the past. i really dont know what to do:(

2009-05-05T05:47:00.000-07:00

TIRED is all i can say for now. i hate exams!!

2009-04-27T06:14:00.000-07:00

i got back my econs essay today. i failed again.. but it was indeed an improvement from the previous lecture test where i had gotten a single digit and had to sit for a re-test. i did badly for my part (a). it was a topic which i studied real well, yet i didnt perform up to standard. part(b) was nonsensical but i scored well. isnt it irony?? why is it always that when i blantanly read through some notes at the last minute and i will score well but not for something which i studies real hard?? i dread getting back my chem lecture test. i somewhat know i failed. its just a sixth instinct. if i really fail chem i will feel super demoralised cos i finally really study chem with understanding and not pure memorisation work. but i think i just didnt know the concepts well-enough at my finger-tips huh!!

oh.. i had a heart-to-heaert talk with how leong just now. it has been centuries since i have ever done that. as usual we talk about our difficulties and went on bitching on others. hahas!! a aunty never fails to do that huh!

Lim Woan.. haha:) you look pretty fuuny when i whisper your name at your ear. you practically screamed. hahas!! i shall stop here before you kill me:):)

2009-04-25T06:06:00.000-07:00

i'm freaking, bloody pissed off!!

2009-04-23T07:53:00.000-07:00

Tmr is SR OLYMPICS. in simpler terms, is a sports day. i think i would have taken part in the long-distance if i hadn't injure my shoulder. cos running involves swinging my arm and this will aggravate the pain. so i shall be a supporter then??!! hmm.. i have so much work to do yet, so little time. my group even decided to hold a small meeting to discuss on our gp work.. how pathetic can we get? imaging the whole school in those sort of ra-ra mood, and we have to settle ourselves down to study. really can't imagine, especially i'm in the picture. its way off!! so you guys can find me in The Study tmr then!! argh!! and the canteen is not open tmr. what will happen to my poor stomach with?? hahas

Conclusion:
SP olympics = self-studying??!

Let me end of with this:
There is no beginning or end... Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift:)

2009-04-20T05:11:00.000-07:00

i didnt go sch today!! i didnt pon, ok!! really sick this time round. doctor suspect that i had a stomach flu and pe induced asthma. lol>< but i think only the latter might be true. i had those wheezing sound after my pe lessons and after climbing 4 storeys to my tutorial class. whats happening to me?!! i dont used to have these kind of symptoms. age is catching up perhaps:)

i have stepped down from cca already due to my shoulder. need to let it have lots of rest before it can recover real soon. just swinging my hands while running will trigger the pain. 1 word of reminder for myself: Dont ever fall on my shoulder again!! oh ya.. good luck basketballers for the upcoming nationals!! i'll give you all my support or though i'm not present for the matches!! put up a good fight and i strongly believe we can win! wahahaha!!

school has been hectic as usual and stuff. having tests almost every waking minute(its kinda exageration) pace has been keeping up steadily and fast. i know exams are coming,but i just dont have the urge, the motivation to study. argh!! i just feel like slleping or doing something else besides studying.

2009-04-09T05:52:00.000-07:00

we got back our pw results today!! yeah!!
its was a piece of great news alright!! way to go, guys..
most of us had gotten an 'A'.our hardwork had finally paid off.. people continue to work hard, we are 80 more points(OMG!! argh!) towards university entry. wahahahaha!!

% 'A's
2006: 1%
2007: 7%
2008: 68.8% Yeah!! my batch:)

seriously, sr tutors had really put in much effort and hardwork, if not for them i must say we could not achieve our desired results. so lets all continue to work hard!!

and not forgetting to thank my team-mates for all the wonderful memories we had during our pw.. focusing, concentrating, fighting and everything. i really enjoyed myself:)

2009-04-04T08:43:00.000-07:00

i have totally MIA-ed for the past month. i did quite poorly for my common test cos i cramped 3 months worth of work in just 1 and a half week. and it really came at a cost. firstly being sick and stuff not to say did poorly. i can only blame myself for that..

next, i had dislocated??! my shoulder during basketball training. argh!! the feeling is horrible, ok?? painful and stuff.. was sent to SGH in an ambulance la, so bloody paiseh.. but i need to thank my friends, classmates, teachers and you for the concern. i also dont know how long it will take to heal. hope thats its not too long though.. living life with just 1 hand is like hell!! my movements and everything are very resticted.. oh ya.. wanling.. its not your fault, k?? nobody wants this to happen. dont take it to heart.. its my fault for not opeining my eyes bigger la:) dont worry!!

1 and a half-month more to common test!! i'm actually looking forward to it!! not because of the exams but the holidays. haha!!

lastly, dont forget
the rewards and consequences!!
-my pact with you:)

2009-03-11T21:06:00.000-07:00

COMMON TEST IS OFFICIALLY OVER!! yeah!! super shiok.. haha:) i fell sick during this period. what a time to fall sick.. i think i screwed up my papers, crossing my fingers and hoped from the bottom of my heart that my results are not screw up.. hais.. i will dread that day where i receive my results..
meeting olivia on sunday:) at least thats something i'm looking forward to:)
thanks huiying aka wei ji mo kok for that letter!! i'm really touched.. thats so sweet of you:):)

2009-03-04T04:39:00.000-08:00

life has been pretty busy ever since sch started. and its getting from bad to worse these few weeks. my eye bags and getting thicker every day, i seemed to age like 10 year after each day passed. this shows how exhausting my life has been. i had played in quite a few friendly matches for the past week. all i can say is EXHAUSTING!! and we should be more aggressive. haha!! i'm like having blue-black all over me la:( sobs!!

oh ya.. im done with my napfa test la.. and that is my LAST one in my entire life!! at least i manage to make the last one end with a beautiful note. haha!! mr yong paced me fo 2.4km and i ran 11.53mins. thats my new record yea!! although his pe lessons are insane, i'll miss it though.. esp the part where he give me biscuits after the run! haha:) thats my only motivation to run fast, yea:)

and thank you for lending me your ear.. and comforting me!! listening to all my troubles:) haha!! i wont hide anything from you le, ok!! hehe><

2009-02-08T04:33:00.000-08:00

i didnt manage to cope with my studies well this weekend. today is like the sunday 8.40pm yet i havent even touch any of my homework or done revision for my tests. i totally destroy my study plan. nevertheless, i leart something new in the youth reunion today. i'm a student, a follower and a servant of God. the pastor and rev words made me really touched and made me want to worship God even more.
i've got to do my homework now..

2009-02-05T05:19:00.000-08:00

today was a fun day towards the end of the day. had much gossips between our classmates including the new ones(not just those from 1s26). then headed to have ct period from the hall. seems that we cant differentiate the good guy from the bad guy. haha!! (eg superman = bad guy).. then had principal talk.. he asked sarawak ppl to stand up and do college dance. none of them dared to stand up. so i screamed loving's name and he bo bian have to stand up.. and soon others started standing also.. and they danced(of course!!) ltr, students started pulling teachers to dance. and miss ng was pulled by loving. it was a fun scene, filled with laughters. and later all j2 were asked to dance. but we forgot the steps alrcos its been 1 year ago since we last danced. pe was fun too(for the first time), we did circuit training. mr yong ask us to run as slow as we can. he sure do regret what he said. we ran as though we were up for slow jog. and run very very fast only when he said:this is the last round, after this you can go home. and we ran like mad dogs. haha.. he was shaking his head....

and i'm going to mug super super hard for CHEMISTRY. i'm going to prove her wrong. i'm really disappointed in her. it seems that nobody could be trusted these days, even the person cloest to you. so ppl, dont ever make my mistake of trusting ppl so easily.

TESTS, TUTORIALS, HOMEWORK

2009-01-31T21:19:00.000-08:00

TESTS, TUTORIALS, HOMEWORK, TESTS, TUTORIALS, HOMEWORK, more than sufficient to keep me busy for the week. let alone my precious weekend, burnt out entirely and not even completing some of them. tmr is the day where the batch of j1 are coming in. my 1st day seemed as though a thousand years ago although it was slightly more than a year ago.how time pass so fast. i will also get to see familiar faces from hs tmr! haha..

yest was homework day as usal.. went to uncle's house for buffet for dinner. he ordered for 120 people, so imagined the amount of food there. and he also hired the lion dance troupe to do a performance.. i shall upload the picts when i have it..

2009-01-31T00:29:00.000-08:00

the world is quite weird actually. there are people who wanted to go poly after finding out that they are not cut out for jc life while there are some who wanted to come jc although they have completed 1 yr of poly course. isnt this irony?

i just want to say this: please please consider, think carefully before making a decision. let it not be a rash one and put all your emotions aside. dont your let emotions sway your thoughts. school will never be easy wherever you are. who ever heard of studying is easy? at the end of the day, i hope you have just make the right decision.

2009-01-27T05:11:00.000-08:00

the short 4 days of CNY is coming to an end!! have been eating alot alot alot of new year goodies! i think i must have weigh at least 100 pounds more.. my mother side family seem to be growing larger and larger every year. more and more unfamiliar faces are around. be it girlfriends or cousins kids!

peacock: faster sheng hai zi let me torture.. (hope biao sao dont see this) muhahahaha!

next
to the irritating brat(you know who you are):
what is PRVIACY?? dont you have any sense of shame peeking at others msgs?? didn't nybody tell you to respect others privaxy before they'll respect you? i am not angry with you. its just that i'm so disappointed in your actions, pretending nothing has ever happen. and you have also BETRAYED my trust for you. who is then the person mei li mao.. think again.. the person you're scolding isn't it yourself. think twice abt your actions before you start pintpointing at others, k? and wanting to find out his blog too.. for more gossips perhaps, you do sound and look like a fish mkt aunty. and let me clarify something first.. THIS IS NONE OF YOUR BUISNESS, AND IT DOESN'T INVOLVES YOU AS A MATTER OF FACT. STAY OUT OF THIS BEFORE THINGS TURN NASTY. this is my last and very warning! may you take it seriously.

lastly, i haven't complete my pile of hw. nice wan la, jiawen.. hais.. i 'm going to carry on working on those.

good bye and have fun ppl:)

my week

2009-01-23T02:01:00.000-08:00

the 2nd week of school had just passed by. its was unusually hectic and fast-paced. i seemed to fall into the routine of school, basketball, tutorials and sleeping easily. trainings are especially tough this year as miss r. wants us to gear up for the upcoming tournaments which is like in march. trainings drained me physically and mentally! so i thing i brought home this week is that we have to stay focus at all times and not be distracted by the happenings around us. was super happy that jialat decided to join back basketball. yea:) i will have one more ff besides jiaxin. muhahaha!! we came to conclusion that it was fated for us to be in basketball after all. oh ya.. had a friendly match with seniors on wednesday(looks like an alumni gathering though), so thoughtful of them to come back to play match with us as it gives us more exposure!

next, i'm starting to know my classmates better or should i say time allows one to expose their true colours! (i dont want to mention names!)hehe><1s26 LOVES to jack as usual. and nicholas make my day today with this line: he arh.. yue mo yue jin qu!! chester i shall not embarrass you more. everybody laugh until buai ta han!!

next, thanks MR N. for giving me the chocolates and the harmonica!! really love it! thanks:)

oh ya.. you guys (jialat, wh and jiaxin) have been seriously mugging hard in this week. keep up with the good work man!! you still have 1 yr and 5 more months to go yea:)

2009-01-18T06:30:00.000-08:00

my grandma won the contest in of saving the earth cum growing plants at the same time. she clenched the chiampionship in the senior citizens category. cool right??! hahas:) i'm super proud of her. if its me, i think i would rather laze around the house. but she's super active. haha..

oh ya.. i miss olivia.. haha she's having her holidays AGAIN!! i'm like so super jealous can??! feel like going poly le.. always have holidays. **i'm so envy of you guys. sadded

2009-01-17T07:10:00.000-08:00

the first weekend has FINALLY(stressing this word!!) arrived. its was indeed a busy week. timetable was super packed especially yesterday where i had like only 5mins to eat before the next lecture and lasted for the whole day. incredible right??! we are back to the fast-paced, hectic, tiring jc life. it shall be over in months(i hope at least). the tutors are not letting us off easy. they bombarded us with loads and loads of homework although its just a weekend and not a holiday. how on earth am i suppose to finish it all by tmr night where i simply wasted the whole of today sleeping and making up for the sleep-lost during schooldays. and we still have to go back school on a saturday morning to attend lecture. for goddness sake, its just the first week. and i'm suffering like hell. how am i going to survive through the next couple of months.. i shall quit complaining and get on.. i chose this path, didnt i?

oh ya.. saw wei ming today. didnt recognize him at first. find him familiar and stopped in front of him to have a close look. hahas! my bad memory is caving its way back! hes still as chatty as ever.

jia you in your school work hors!! YOU CAN DO IT:)

2009-01-15T06:09:00.000-08:00

The start of a new school year has finally arrived. its has passed 4 days actually. and you know what??! i'm sick and tired of going to school already. the piles and piles of never-ending tutorials and homework are incompleteable(my word!). and i haven't completed my holiday assignment and there is a test on it next week. nice one la.. j2 workload is starting to get heavier adding on to our tutors strictness. omg!! if could survive through this year its a miracle in disguise. time-management will be something that i have to learnt this year, and it had to be fast. super fast. basketball training really wears me out and its 3 times per week. argh!! oh yarh.. my econs tutor fierceness is on par with mrs gan(hs ppl will understand!!). but if we can achieve our desired results i think our 'sufferings' are worth it. i can only think of SLEEP now!

i better get on with my school work.. have to wake up in the morning to run 5k and 10 sets of sprinting. wish me luck!

2009-01-06T18:47:00.000-08:00

yest woke up super early(at 6.15) to go for basketball training>< i had so huge a trouble to wake up la, since its holidays and i woke up like 10 plus everyday. trust me, its no easy task and i have to wake up at 6 starting next week. training does really make a difference with the presence of miss r. after about 2 hours of training, all of us fell super super super shagged!! the training doesn't seems 2 hours, seemed like 4 hours. i think she crammed 4 hours of training into 2. omg. so imagine it.. but we feel very accomplished after the training.

in the afternoon, when my bro came back from sch.. he pestered and begged me to bring him to a movie. i raised my hands to surrender and brought him to one. we watched bedtime stories. seriously it is a super nice show. if the guys had given twilight 3.5/5 , i would give bedtime 4.5/5 its really that nice la..i wouldnt mind watching it again:) i didn't regret bringing him to the movie yea:)

2008-12-28T18:02:00.000-08:00

i'm freaking lucky to be in a jc (for once), cos poly ppl start school w.e.f from today. muhahaha>< i still have a week or 2 to enjoy my holidays, let alone a ll the pile up homework i haven't touch yet becos i've simply in no mood for those. and of course hs style: leave everything till the last minute and it will still be fine!!

2008 is coming to an end with 2 more days left. to sum up, this year has many many ups and downs. its great to have entered sr and know so many friends and not forgetting ppl i met in hs (ps: i really missed the times when we run next door!! haha) but its time to move on. and i have also visited my dream country. whoa whoa whoa!! haha. but this year had been a bad year for our family line with 3d***** lining closely after one another.

hence my wish for next year(2009):

everybody to stay healthy and happy!!
dig out time to study !! ('A's next yr)
buy more stuff i want (its always never enough, greedy perhaps)
go to korea again. muhahaha!! but with cousins and all next yr:)
dont brood over the past and move on!!
more gatherings with hs peeps:)

the list shld stay like this for the time-being. cant think of anything more.

more picts added

2008-12-24T05:53:00.000-08:00

i have uploaded more picts already. blogger is freaking fast today. hahas:) didnt had a prob with it like the other day.. the other picts shall be kept away!! hehe:)
i shall send the picts to the respective owners separately!! i want mine too:)

i had christmas reunion and secondary clique gathering on 23 dec. omg.. didnt see most of them for so long. felt that we were so close yet so far.. missed the great times we had together crapping here and there.. nevertheless, we started jacking here and there once our engine started. muhahaha:) we just have to be kuan rong da liang or else our life would be super boring.. going to post the another day when i get hold of it:)

and tmr is CHRISTMAS!! or should i say its in 1 hr 20 mins ltr?? christmas is the best season of the year. and i simply loved it:) but this year, its different:( its differnent from now

2008-12-22T20:38:00.000-08:00

i'm finally back from korea. had lots and lots and lots of fun there as well as fond memories. i took about 700++ photos of the whole trip. i'm like a part-time photographer most of the time. the temperature there is like whoa.. (it even went below 0 degree) we went skiing at Mt Sorak which was -11 degree. its really a miracle we didnt freeze!! i master the art of skiing in a few minutes. i did fall down many times of course, but its fun yea:) was pespiring like hell when we decided to head back to the hotel. irony right?? its really a pity that i didnt' get to see snow. as the temperature is not cold enough. but to us we were like WHAT??!! nevertheless, we saw tiny tiny snow flakes dropping down from the sky. we were so sua-ku and started shouting.. hahas:) its better than nothing right. We also went to Yong In Everland(the place where red bean lady was filmed). We went for the largest roller cooaster ride in the theme park. it was phew. the slope was really steep. its looks almost vertical and we dropped down from a height of 10 storeys. me and raph screamed throughout the whole ride. haha:) i also wore the korean tradidtional costume. it looks funny on me though..

i shall upload the rest some other time cos blogger is giving me a huge headache.
argh!!

2008-12-13T04:44:00.000-08:00

thinking my thoughts!

i start to loathe my life. i'm getting irritated, annoyed, pissed off... with everything revolving around me. i may seem to be natural, happy and everything. but there's a big BUT behind everything i do. i have to think of the consequences behind every action i do. if i don't do it this way, i will blah blah.. (i just have to do it against my will). i am really really disappointed. i haven't had this kind of feeling for a long long time, but its coming back, coming back to haunt me. staying optimistic hasn't always been in my mind. pessmistic sounds more like it. i really missed the happy, fun times i used to have. i don't have to worry about anything. living the way it should and not knowing where the path ahead will lead to (thats' the way excitement are brought in and i simply loved it!!) life had much ups and downs. but recently, the downturns are getting more and more. the hole which i am falling into are getting deeper and deeper. no matter how strong i am, i am unable to get out of the humongous hole. i'm sinking deeper and deeper into it. i'm starting to be unconscious. may some hero come and save me!

2008-12-11T05:42:00.000-08:00

holidays = watching my favourite korean drama (if i'm at home)

yep.. so chionging dramas after dramas.. havent really watch them for the past 1 year due to the hectic jc life. argh!!

and i haven't start and revision or done my homework yet. argh!! going insane soon..

olivia!! meet up soon yea:)

2008-12-04T18:47:00.000-08:00

10 facts about me:

noisy
but hates noisy places
loves to sleep
blur
loves purple
thinker
get scam by others easily
loves korean drama:)
loves my besties!
be myself:)

There you go jiale! hahas..

2008-12-02T18:35:00.000-08:00

Have been totally, utterly, wholey.. exhausted for the past few days. its all due to the Tour'de Singapore. Amazing arh?? we cycled for 60km setting of at 10 at reaching our destination(starting point) at 6. Its quite a miracle that i survived through though. Oh yarh, we cycled a wrong route which resulted in needing to ride a few distance shorter.. (yeah!!) but the teachers didn't racky the place before hence, mr yang isn't too sure whether we are on the correct path or not.. but we decided to go ahead and eventually made it. There wasn't any street lighting at all and was completely dark except for those headlights on our bike. Me, with such good imagination, started to imagine lots of things which gave me the energy to cycle super fast and keep up with my teammates. and also not forgetting the encouragement they gave me and i shall forgive them caling me xiao hei then:)
yupyup, through this trip. i think i have actually see the characters and personalities of my teammates!! and i love team Tahnee.. hope that all of us could go on the trip next year and lets all pray hard that we'll be on the same team!!

hmm.. we're supposed to be in chiangmai now!! hais.. holiday boredom is starting to kick in!

2008-11-28T21:43:00.001-08:00

i'm so suai until cannot. the long-prepared chiangmai trip is canceled due to our safety blah blah blah... we prepare for it like shit and in the end this turn out. i'm so disappointed la. and tmr we shall have Tour'de Singapore (night cycling) instead. Like this can ever replace the trip. But the principal promised us a trip next march and we are definitely not going to chiangmai. i so hope that it isn't a white lie just to comfort us not being able to go chiangmai.

life really really stinks now!!

2008-11-25T19:33:00.000-08:00

HOLIDAYS ARE FINALLY HERE!!

i have waited this day for so damn bloody long!! omg.. cant believe its actually here.. and there's no more basketball training this year.. felt quite happy and sad all together actually. happy that the long tiring hours of trainings are over. sad over that i cant see my team mates and have fun while training. quite contradicting right?? its the first day of holiday and i actually felt quite bored already. lots and lots of homework are piled up, but i didnt give a shit. Who does homework on the first day of holiday?? a geek mst probably. haha!!

Oh yarh, all the h2 econs students from 1s26 were promoted to 2s21. hurray.. so we all all in the same class. about 7 of us anyway and we make up the majority in our new class with miss ng as our ct again. she tried to act stern and fierece yesterday during our interaction with our ct. but after 1 year with her, we found out that she wanted to give students a stern impression of her, and no fooling around where studeies is of the main concern. but we 1s26 as "old birds" saw through her stern appearance almost immediately and started to crack jokes with her.. yet she maintained her famous expression. she is a tough nut to crack but soft on the inside. we seriously are a bunch of lucky people to get her as our ct again. i quite dread the time to meet our new classmates. I am unsociable during the first few days of meeting people. so what?? dont judge people by their cover. thats all i can say.

next, i start to have pessmistic thoughts on the school trip to chiangmai. i really really hope that the trip would continue as planned. but seeing the situations in bangkok now, its quite bad. argh!! why did they pick such a time to protest. my god!! argh!!

2008-11-24T04:50:00.000-08:00

just came back from basketball training and my head is throbbing shit pain. dunnoe why?? mayb run too much la.. mayb cos sprinting all the way la for a few hours with short breaks here and there. furthermore sprinting isn't my cup of tea..

the worse is.. i havent done my AQ which is due last friday. omg omg.. going to do it tmr
i hav history quiz tmr (3/4 of the book), yet i havent start revising. way to go man!

but tmr is the last day of school, and i will be free from the studying torture chamber. looking forward to be released! sounds like some POW.. haha..

my life stinks.

2008-11-22T23:13:00.001-08:00

i have been so busy for the past few days or should i say weeks?? but i can't seem to remember what i've done.

chiangmai trip is coming up.. 6 more days away. i hope everything is going well there. keeping my fingers crossed!

2008-11-11T05:16:00.000-08:00

These few days had been a tremendous torture to me both physically and mentally. till now, i still couldn't accept the fact that my lovely grandma had passsed away. this is a seriously nightmare. Why haven't i wake up from this dream? It is very very long and i'm tired. Somebody, please wake me up from this dream and tell me it is just a nightmare and nothing has changed!

My grandma passed away on 7 nov. I received the phone call from my family. I couldn't believe my ears. It is just so so impossible. She is so cheerful, healthy, bubbly compared to the rest of the elderly. Hence, it is impossible for me to accept the fact. I was in school at that point of time. Although they did not tell me directly my grandma passed away, my instincts told me. She passed away peacefully in her sleep without pain or anything. So that's one thing to be glad about. I felt so lost. I lost my direction, my goal. Everything seemed so blurred now. It is like i just lost my pillar of support. I really did not know what to do. I took my granma for granted and felt that the things she did for me are what she is supposed to do. But now..他在人生的火车比我们早下车. i couldnn't believe my eyes. My senses are tricking me! My grandma is like my everything. i have lived with her for the whole of my life. So you should understand how i feel.

The night before, she was still well. I deeply regretted the last phrase which we exchanged words. I talked back to her. If time could turn its hands back again, i would not have done it and would be an obedient girl and do what she say. What is the use of saying all this now. She is gone. I am deeply remoreseful. But i cannot do anything. I finally understood the phrase: One only learn to treasure something when they have lost it and this phrase applies to me. Its too late now.

Tears seemed to roll down my cheeks frequently. It is like buckets and buckets of water splashed over me. My little cousin even commented that i was the only white shirt who is crying la. Whatever?!
我伤心,悲哀没人会了解.

Random

2008-11-04T19:49:00.000-08:00

i'm done with my INR
was blog hopping and found this on willie's blog.

the steps are laid, the route is created.
there's this destination; it's where i want to be. the fog's near finished clearing and the road ahead is almost clear and it's right in front of me now. it's there for me to walk, to get to the place i want to be.
there's just one worry in my mind;
what if the whole road's just a hallucination?

i dont know why i just find this phrase quite meaningful. i think its written by him. so pro seh. i'm simply attracted to it. i dno why..

2008-11-04T05:57:00.000-08:00

yeah.. 4 nov marks the end of pw for my group.. but i still hav to do the INR. how boring can it get?? op is quite a success for us.. after our hours and hours of training, our hardwork finally paid off:) so shiok now!! our accessors are miss toh and mrs tan, both our tutors. how lucky can we be?? furthermore, we do not have moderators and we also have our classmates as students audience. how lucky can we get?? there wasn't even a tingle of being afraid. haha!! we are just purely lucky:) i see lady luck smiling at us, yea:)

although there is no lessons this week due to the OP, my schedule seems hetic. there's like things to do everyday la from today to next friday at least. everything is planned out already. i'm a busy busy busy girl!!

my longest day

2008-10-31T07:15:00.000-07:00

today is a super super super long day after promos in a jc.

firstly, had to reach school by 7.30 to run 5k as a team. damn. i cannot believe that i actually did that la. wake up so early just to run. early in the morning sweat like dog already. run halfway decided to walk. cos no stamina le.. so walk the rest only 1k with jiale. haha.. after walking want to run very difficult seh legs feel super heavy la.. so continue walking:)

next, had pw op presentation. volunteer to go bookshop to print op slides cos i dont want stay in class. saw yen ting and chester on the way. pei me go bookshop and slack. the queue super long la.. took about 1 hour. go back class still first grp presenting only la.. then ms ng is the angel for the day. said my grp can go have break cos still need quite a long time then our turn to present. so basically WAIT AND WAIT AND WAIT.. and my turn presenting, the nevin and tai hong make spastic faces la. then i present halfway and start laughing. damn.

next, chester keep suaning me for the whole day:(

then basketball training again. did 3v3 thingy. haha.. my group had me, huiying and alvana. we emrged as the winner of the winner of the winner......... haha:) screening helps a lot man, and also our mo ji.. haha!!then play 6v6.. run like dog la.. full court somore.. running up and down like free la. so sweaty and stinky!! dunt know why keep colliding with people la. dunt know whats wrong with me. then whole game keep falling down. so sian la. i think i injured my ankle. super pain seh.. crossed my fingers that i did not sprained it.. but this is nothing compared to huiying la.. i shall not post the details so as not to embarrass her. hope she get well soon.. then have to do pt again, ran the track 2 rounds, do 50 crutches and 50 pumping. still cannot go home. miss R. still nag nag nag at us to do well in our upcoming pw. and it lasted 5 hours in total from 3-8. wth man!! i feeling super super super tired now with a bad headache also. next week have training but we are excused on monday:) super happy:) cos we have op on tuesday

now still have to do inr la.. sian..

well.. this is jc life. welcome!!

2008-10-30T05:35:00.000-07:00

i was tagged by my favourite person OLIVIA PHUA!!

1. Your relationship with him/her is?
my bestie even till now.. a gossip queen.. haha!! tell her everything about me:)

2. Your five impression of him/her?
slim, siao cha bor, pretty, loud, noisy!! haha:)

3. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
listen to all my sorrows, beside me at all times

4.The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
what are sisters for!! XD

5.What kind of guy/girl he/she like?
Mr NICE??!! (muhahahaha!! only she'll understand:)

6.If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
i will love her. haha.. but impossible:(

7. If he/she becomes your lover, the thing he/she has to improve on will be:
stop giving me dumb nicknames:)

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:
i will go her house and steal all her HELLO KITTY collection cos thats her favourite cartoon character

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
she dont want me:( sob sob

10. The most desired thing that you want to do for him/her now is:
Buy her belated birthday present.. ps havent do yet. i'm just so busy!! haha.. but will give you soon!!

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
argh... cannot wait to see her. its been so long since we gossip face to face. miss herXD

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?
hmm.. noisy?? crazy?? hyper?? dao when i dont know people(thats for sure!!).......

13. The characters you love of yourself are:
everything.. haha..thats what make me!!

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:
thinking too much and i get soooo tired when i go school the next day

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
there's no perfect person.. so i'm happy being who i am

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
i will cherish and treasure this friendship:)

17. Pass this Quiz to 10 people.
1. Waii Hoong 2. Jiaxin 3. Jialat 4.How leong 5. Victor
6. Tai Hong 7. Kia Min 8. Estelle 9. Zi Yang 10. Hong Hui

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
hmm.. i dont really know whether they are still together or not??

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
MALE!!

20. If no.7 and 8 are together, will it be a good thing?
good friends ba.. they know each other:)

22. What is no.2 studying about?
same as me:)

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no. 5?
a few days ago. cannot really remember

24. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
i have no idea. ps

25. Does no.1 have any siblings?
yep yep

26. Will you woo no.3 ?
hehe!! why not?? SO JIALAT seh!!

28. Is no.4 single?
yea.. he just have to confess thats all:)

29. What is the surname of no.5 ?
TAN!!

30. What's the hobby of no.4?
jacking others. haha:)

31. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?
NO!! cos they dont even know each other exist. thats what i think..

32. Where is no.2 studying at?
SRJC my class

33. Talk something casually about no.1?
hmm.. mr act act lo.. likes to talk a lot at times.. likes to make a lot of funny faces at me..

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8 ?
yea.. one of my girlfriends..

35. Where does no.9 live at?
i forget already. had bbq once there though..

36. What colour does no.4 like?
blue??

37. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
NICE TRY!! they barely know each other la.

38. Does no.7 like no.2 ?
No way.. its IMPOSSIBLE:)

39. How do you get to know no.2 ?
i cannot really remember.. we are in the same class.. mayb through lecture, tutorial or orientation..

40. Does no.1 have any pets?
eh.. NOPE!!

41. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
yea!! haha

42. Is no.10 tall?
yes.. and love to suan my height:(

1S26

2008-10-25T23:49:00.000-07:00

Commendation Day has marked an end to our JC 1 journey in srjc. we have reached an end where most of us would be split up and continue our journeys in all different directions. 1s26 has brought fond memories to me. our class is made up of many different characters which make us so unique.. haha!! it is really an enjoyable year for us..
characters of 1s26

Miss Hardworking (Ashrini)
Miss Ah Lian Singer (Jiaxin)
Mr Act Cute (Waii Hoong)
Mr Hot ( Chester) ahem!!
Miss Hungry (Jaleen)
Mr Tarrot (Jun Heng)
Miss Cute (kelly)
Miss Strong (Pei Xuan)
Mr Mud (Nevin)
Mr Loving (Nicholas)
Mr Cool (Ming wei)
Mr Playboy (Anthony)
Mr Chao Mugger (how leong)
Miss Mafia (Xin ying)
Mr Spastic / Mr Entertainer (PHUA TAI HONG)
Miss Sniff Sniff (Yen Ting)
Mr Suaning Chester (Ma Qian)
Miss Quiet (Shafiqah)
Miss Dancer (Reavthi)
Mr Gangster (Thina)
Miss Li li jie (Wan li)
Miss Polite (Tyze Feng)

so these are all the different characters which made me enjoy my stay in srjc and in 1s26. they are a bunch of fun people. so do look out for them:) yarh and also, our class pawned the cohort in maths.. thanks to our wonderful CT, Miss Ng (hard on the outside but soft in the inside)..

2008-10-21T08:28:00.000-07:00

just did finish finding links for chap 4 and 5. it isnt as simple as i think it was. took abt 3 hours. need xin's help tmr to convert it into APA format cos i dont know how to do.. pw shall be over soon. lets all get over and done with:) yeah, 4 nov shall be the last day for pw. so looking forward towards it larh..
hmm.. i chatted with olivia again.. we havent meet up for ages you know.. I MISS HER LIKE CRAZY.. you need to book her in advance and have an appointment with her then can see her wan la. hahas.. i can see her wanting to strangle me now. hehe!! although we may not meet up often, msn is really a great invention to socialise. i must make full use of it. but i always get drifted off while doing pw. haha. our little chats allows us to catch up with each others life. haha. mr nice!!

2008-10-17T22:54:00.000-07:00

yesterday attended leadership seminar. the talk is as fruitful as usual. im always very very inspired by the talk:) the emcee tried to make a joke about juggling commitments which isnt funny to 1s26 ears at all la. we sit there and say: funny meh? while the whole lecture theatre burst into laughters. OH MY!!

the day before. i slept very late. hahas. at about 2am then off com go and sleep. wilson called me and we chatted for more than half and hour. hahas. recalling what we did in the past and of course giving me some necessary pointers and advices. next, i chateed with olivia for more than 1 hour i think.. catching up with the gossips in our life which we have missed out. i knew one more dark dark secret of hers. hehe!! my mouth is zip and i will bring that to my grave. it has been a long time since i ever have a heart to heart talk with anyone. i feel the most at ease when i talk to her la. topics always revolve around our life:) eg: Mr Nice. haha. we shall meet up soon after your o level. jia you hors

and to all those taking o level this year: best of luck!! especially to olivia, gek ling, wilson, jing ren and all my friends:) you can do it. believe in yourself. jia you jia you!!

2008-10-15T07:52:00.000-07:00

its has been a long long time since i go for basketball training. its tiring as usual:( yet, cannot rest when i go home cos i have to research on chiangmai's economy. thanks wh, for helping me to find info or else i really no need sleep liao. hahas. thanks.. and yea, i went to eat beef steak for dinner. haha:) really enjoyed it!! so damn nice la. my favourite meat. hehe:)

much things hav happen recently. i'm quite bothered about it, feeling pretty lousy about everything. i start to think a lot, more than usual (everyone hav brains one, you know. we all think. except that we do not know how to express our ideas. dont junp into conclusion that people are not thinking. so who are you to comment on all this? i dont think you have the right to do so!! )

jiaxin.. dont worry so much yea:) i will still be there for you. if you need my help, dont hesistate to ask. i will try my best to do it if it is within my ability:)

olivia: jia you for english 'o'!! jia you jia you!!

and finally, tmr the principal will talk about how we fare as a cohort, which is quite badly for most of us. argh.. dreading tmr.

yea, i go slp lerh.. so tired

2008-10-13T07:18:00.000-07:00

sat: had my first cycling training session for chiangmai. it was phew!! damn tiring la. our team was given the hardest route (jungle trail) first la. i was damn tired after completing the first 2 routes la, with only 2 slices of bread in my stomach for the whole day seh. and i flew off my back thrice.. hahas. luckily did not suffer any serious injuries only backache nia.. its quite good lerh la compared to others:) hope that went i go to chiangmai, i will be a better cyclist la.. im the worst in my team for its the first time in my entire life that i cycle on that kind of trail la. i going to train so i wont let the team down.
ps:i wont cycle anymore after the chianmai trip. why did i torture myself so much??

and today.. its the worst day of this year.. collection of promos results. argh!! i flunk everything, only did well in maths compared to others. but thats my best subject la. if nvr do well in that, its really gg la. on the overall, its still quite bad. my chance of retaining is like 80%. is it because i did not grasp the concepts well?? is it because im too playful/talkative, yaking non-stop?? is it because i'm plainly stupid?? hmm. should start practising cheers and dance alr.. will need it next year for orientation 2009. now, i just hope that i can retain. life is miserable, isnt it?? i still quite sad abt the results although i expected it larhs. but.. yarh.. i gt the same feeling when i collected my chinese o level results last year this time.. i dont know whats wrong with me.. just feel disappointed with myself. jc life isnt so esay afterall, folks.

2008-10-10T05:56:00.000-07:00

school has been quite boring after promos are over.. i screwed them up completely. we are going to check scripts on monday.. aiya.. dread that day.. i've been playing basketball and doing pw these few days. chinese a coming, but i didnt seem to do much abt it.. going to start mugging chinese really soon..

i've been aching like an old woman.. back pain, muscle ache, hand pain, anckle ache and now tummy upset. all at once. wth.. and i've cycling training tmr. nice want la. confirm cui like siao la. hais.. oh, had cycling test on wednesday.. i passed it la:) only miss one cone. mr cheong said its ok haha!! just need to be more confident.. i'm seriously not confident at all abt the cycling trip in chiangmai la.. just hope these few cycling training will help me to overcome all my fears and obstacles..

oh yarh, olivia.. get well soon hors:) dont over-tire yourself.. will start with our gossip sometime soon:) hehe

Photos photos and more photos

2008-10-03T07:22:00.000-07:00

hehe!! today had loads and loads and loads of fun.. thanks jia lat, jia xin, waii hoong and how leong for the cookies. i'm really touched. enjoyed the day too!! we camwhored and camwhored and camwhored.. and this is only half of the pictures.. the rest in waii hoong's phone. hehe!! will get it soon:)

random pics

2008-09-30T08:45:00.000-07:00

2008-09-30T06:54:00.000-07:00

hmm. promos are finally over!! and i mean finally. there's like one million things for me to do, yet i have so little time. now its the time to play hard, play hard and play even harder. my promos results are like shit. i smell my orientation ticket to 2009 already.. some of my classmates are also pratising college dance (haha!!) and also orion cheers. ( funny seh!!) last time i used to have negative thoughts about retaining but not anymore such as its the end of the world, my life is destroyed...very extreme right?? but me being retain is near to 90%, argh!! so saddist. but i have to admit, i have to face it sooner or later! why not be mentally prepared now? how i wish we do not have to study. its such a burden. the only thing which keeps me going to school are my classmates, if not for them i will just quit school and go open a char kuey tiao stall ( sounds familiar??!) my friends all think i can be promoted to j2 easily, but i doubt so. i didnt study as hard for my mid years. i feel very pressurised and stressed because all of you think so highly of me. i cant bear to let you guys down. shocked, surprised, stunned will be what you guys feel when you know i retain. but dont show it to me. i'm afraid i cant take it as i would be letting a lot of people down. i think its time to catch up with my friends(4e3, pae friends and blah blah..) who are missing out from my lives since school officially started, exams nearing. yup, with my stm, i didnt forget you guys. miracle right?? these few days are like a mini holiday for me cos my promos ended the earliest on thursday (jealous right, physicists?). hehe! so have been rotting for the past few days like watching my favoruite korean drama ( yeah!!) and playing baketball. yesterday bball was the most tiring. we play and sweat like free for 8 hours. omg!! i cant believe it also. its just like schooling hours larhs. oh yarh, not forgetting the steamboat meal at orchard where i was cowned the ball queen!! hehe!!( cos i ordered a lot of fishballs, haha!!) also, the soup was pawnage after adding the prawn heads and BEEF!! yeah!! delicious!!

2008-09-05T05:35:00.000-07:00

sat 8.45pm

hmm. today study with waii hoong and how leong at my house, not so productive cos my bro keep on pestering us. hmm... but at least complete something. i will do more tonight to make up for the loss in the morning.

we also have entertainer of the year

MR SELF-PROCLAIMED CUTE( CHEONG WAII HOONG)!! argh!! said him being cute here and there. cant really remember cos it is so insignificant!! and also i will post a before and after photo when i'm free!! hehe!! so everyone can have a laugh!! woots!!

2008-09-03T20:54:00.000-07:00

hmm.. so much have happen these past few days, and i'm so busy!!

31 Aug (Sunday)
its NIKE HUMAN RACE!!! hahas. its a large-scale event, and i've signed up for it. we ran 10km around some cities area. and 11.3k people in singapore signed up for it. omg imagine the countless pack of people running. i was like omg!! and i also manage to run i think slightly off i hr(bad!! i did better in Will Run!!). and also SRJC manage to clinch the school category. HEHE!! we rock!! and also i need to thank WEE LING for accompanying me in the run and her words of encouragement!! THANK YOU!!

1 Sep ( Monday)
hmm.. went waii hoong house to study and quite productive. quite a lot of work completed!! hehe!!

2 sept (Tuesday)
went to school to for lessons. had chemistry consulatation in the afternoon with MRS TAN. she is a very good teacher who is willing to spend tons and tons of time with her students without complaint!! i really learn a lot in the small group consultation. thank you, mrs tan. and miss toh won the most caring teacher award (she should!!) cos she's really a great teacher. i'm so fortunate to be taught by her. she also cried after reading the nomination form.. ow!!!

3 Sept (Wednesday)
went to school for lessons again!! had history and chemistry consulattions in the afternnon. so i did not have time to go for basketball farewell. anyway, the seniors gave me a nailpaper engraved with my name. it was wow!! thanks a lot.. it was raining like cats and dogs.. so stuck in school and study for a while before heading home. and thanks to you for hurting my head. it was a temporary sharp pain!! you'll regret!!

EVERYBODY JIA YOU FOR PROMOS!! WE CAN DO IT!!

ups and downs

2008-08-29T07:13:00.000-07:00

IN SRJC,
reach school slightly off 7 to plat basketball but kana chase out of court after playing for awhile cos there's a teacher-student match going on. just a short match and i was perspiring all over already. i'm just like another running tap. the performance in sr is like... (no comments). the only nice part was the video of the teachers. haha!! had a great laugh!! time is running tight, but the performance is like never-ending. so pissed larh cos we need to rush back to secondary school. finally ended. phew!! and dear olivia was screaming faster cab down to hs!! but reach hs the moment the concert end. so sad!!

i dont know why he was so pissed with me. i think that i didn't do anything wrong. even if i did, i will apologise but the problem is that i don't know what i have done to deserve such attitude and glare. so i was quite angry with him. can't he just say right smack in my face what i've done wrong? this is really the first time that i have felt so angry after i step into a jc.

IN HS,
i was excited to see all my friends and my cliques, can't wait to chat with them. but everybody seem to have change. i can't feel our class spirit anymore, it's not united as it once was. everybody is getting cliquey. we went for lunch together because miss khong was there. we didn't mix around and socialise, just among our good friends. i'm quite disappointed larhs. then saw the guys playing land. damn no life seh. heard that they played for 4 hours alr. i was like omg!! then jio me go watch late night movie, but i rejected. why? i've tons and tons of work to do. first time sia. i know. but will catch up with them real soon!! the guys (mostly we all started off as 1e4), didnt change much!! we were still as chatty as playful as ever. had a long long long talk with OLIVIA and CHELSY. catching up with each other's life which we have been missing out. so much have happen within such a short period of time ever since we graduated.

2008-08-28T07:43:00.000-07:00

whoa.. time pass really fast seh.. im going back to hs to celebrate teachers' day. cant believe it man. yeah!! can see all my old old friends. my phone kept vibrating throughout as i was being bombarded with teachers' day preparations. seems like i have a lot to do:( and you know what, i think im having writer's block now, so i'm taking a break from my gp essay. i have wrote 2 paragraphs(not completed) in an hour and found out that it was totally out of point. so disgusted larh. i wasted my time and my effort (or else got more time to sleep), so sad!!

i also dunt know whats going on with me. i feel damn pissed easily recently. dunt know why. it hasnt happen before. im pissed with things, people, stuff, everything ard me especially myself!! i also dunt know why. izzit a transition stage? or izzit because i cant find solution to my thoughts?
i have been also thinking alot recently. thinking seems to be by next best hobby after sleeping, staring into space like im the only human on earth. i better quit this habit now!! but i will be zhi bu jue slip into this habit when im quiet or the teacher's are having lessons. omg!!

2008-08-26T12:40:00.000-07:00

HAHAHA!!! LOOK AT JIA XIN'S SPASTIC FACE!! this is a picture taken by waii hoong. just because of this picture, many things happen. eg: fighthing ( ah lian what, no kick!!), lovebite (waii hoong still very proud of it came showing off to me when i came school in the morning!!) haha!! all these happen during pw!! our grp as usual is always in chaos. but its not my fault this time cos im not in school!! jia xin, you should feel honoured when you see this pict here!! its just too good to be true. dont ever ask me to delete. fat hope. its for everybody to admire!! muhahaha!!

i've to go complete my homework already. just wanted to post this ahem picture here!! whee!! she's really going insane if she see this here!!

Saturday = PW day = Random Day

2008-08-23T08:55:00.000-07:00

i went to school for maths lecture in the morning. later went to have lunch with the usuals and joke and being random. Originally, my plan was to meet up with justin and guan hua to buy present for ___ &___ ( dont want to mention its a surprise after all; power of internet!!). But in the end, i back out cos the time was too rush. cannot talk much then hav to leave abit weird. yea. so decided to ps them. paiseh guys!! i will have lunch with you guys real soon. promise. haha!!

although i was allocated task to do for my pw, my mind somehow drift away. i started looking through the videos and pictures stored in my thumb. i couldn believe i've graduated from hougang sec so fast. it just seem yesterday i was enrolled there. time seems to past so fast without me knowing. memories of my friends, prefectorial board, teachers, hangout in schools came flashing at the back of my mind. i havent thought of hs that much recently. and today, i find that a part of me is missing, i really miss HOUGANG SEC a lot, my cliques, everybody. why has time have to pass so fast. its like i just got to know you guys and here we are separated again. what is this? this is life. we just have to accept it. i'm looking forward to going back to hs on friday, im really excited. i still feel that i always belong to hs. my heart is always there. suddenly, i just felt like putting on my white and blue uniform again!! but i dont think i hav a chance anymore. i did not cherish it before. one only learn to cherish after you have lost it. i finally understand what this mean.

sometimes, i just feel that i'm just not part of srjcian. although i may seem happy, contented at almost all times, i just feel that i do not belong there. mayb its the culture?? i really cant get used to it and its marching into the 9th month and i still cannot adapt to it. how bad is that? the way school is being carried out is totally different, i simply cant adjust to it. i really dunt know what to do. friends & classmates are great. but its a total different issue after all.

next, pw!! today pw is total different, ok. we never fight. for once. haha!! must congragulate me!!
i was quite productive hence millions of braincells were killed during this period. i realized that this was the first time which i actually sat down and do a chapter. by myself. and it was super super hard. its an accomplishment for me, ok. after spending so much time and effort in pw, we do expect good grades in return. but is it even possible??

im wide wide awake

2008-08-20T12:43:00.000-07:00

GUYS (especially HOW LEONG!!), please STOP spamming my tagboard with irrelevant stuff!!

Reply tags:
Jiaxin: no prob!!
Jieying: yep, it sure is it!! you also jia you!! meet up soon.
Waii hoong: study hard!!
Junhao: i dunnoe what to say, im the innocent party
kelly: i will study hard, but i definitely dont want to be rank as chao muggers:)
HOWLEONG: STOP SPAMMING WITH IRRELEVANT STUFF OF YOU WILL GET IT FROM ME!! I DONT MIND BREAKING THE PACT MADE WITH WAII HOONG JUST TO GIVE YOU A REAL HARD PUNCH!!

hmm.. today had basketball training as usuals. had fun taking to sok while doing three man rift. and for the first time it ended so early at 6.30 on the dot. i was so happy:) cos it usually end ard 8pm which wears me completely out. i dunnoe whats going on with me. images, scenes, keeping flashing at the back of my mind, which cause me to be distracted. i'm just thinking, thinking and thinking a lot more these few days. argh and as usuals there's more tests coming up!!

econs drq
history (end of cold war) i dont know anything except perestroika and glasnost
chem lecture test ( chemical equilibrium)

and the best is i'm awake to study for the test, but just cant get into the mood:(

wee hours of the morning

2008-08-16T13:32:00.001-07:00

i have been awake for half an hour now, but i simply cannot get into the mood of studying. i need to do my EOM. its due tmr and its FINAL DRAFT. seriously i think it will be cmi. i dont even know how to do and where to start larh. nice want, jiawen. Also, theres' A level spa on monday, and you know what, i've yet to study anything!! i dont know whats going on with me. i somehow dont have the drive to work harder. seems like studying has always been part of my life and i've no choice but to do it. the amount of work has also been piling up. and i'm bury in a pile of worksheets from head to toe.

hoong: i can see the amount of effort you have put in, and you have change a lot since i know you. continue with this motivation and drive and you will definitely excel in your studies, like no kick. sometimes, little sacrifices are worthwhile. you may not be able to see it now, but dont give up!! promo is now all what matters!! you must own the paper inside out. have confidence and faith in yourself.. JIAYOU!!

jiaxin: WAKE UP!! even your husband start to mug for promo alrready. how about you?? i think its because you chose not to study. you can do well if you want. i want to promote with you guys or j2 would be meaningless. so you know what to do now??!! i hope you feel encouraged and START MUGGING NOW!!

my homework list

2008-08-10T08:04:00.000-07:00

Reply Tags:
Olivia: thanks for your words of encouragement!! olivia = my guardian angel?? ( have to rethink about it) jkjk..
Leong: thanks fo always sabotaging my peaceful life huh. i'm such an innocent victim
Hoong: always tio suan by you. can you go find another victim??
xin: at least you are the best among the 3:)
Jieying: Yo!! Long time, no see!! hahas.. forget to ask you link.. hehe!! so hows life recently??

This week is such a long weekend, but i've yet to start doing my homework. my list is growing needless to say how my revision goes. hais.. i've left with 1 more day. i will use it wisely and complete all the homework. I HOPE!! so there goes my list:

EOM (opps, due last monday)
Chemistry Magazine
GP -AREE
Cheng yu worksheet 5 & 6
Econs E-learning
Maths E-learning (differentiation)
Maths tutorial ( vectors 1&2)
History prep
Chemistry tutorial
PW!! (omg, faint!!)
Chinese E-learning
Gp Elearning - mindmap
Gp Reading package (due last week)

OMG!! and i have to hand in most of these homework by tuesday!! Its really a huge challenge if i do not side-track that is.. just reading this list, chills ran down my spine. i dont have the confidence in completing my homework.. how?? life is totally atrocious for me now!!

2008-08-07T17:57:00.000-07:00

TO:
Hoong: chose it because i know you hate PINK.. HEHE!!
Olivia: haha!! i know its damn random. nevertheless, i also miss you loads!! will cya soon!! anyway, havent give you your birthday present. its real late this year!! haha!!
Howleong: hey, i also never give hoong. but he also found this. so when there's a will there's a way!! and i dont intend to give you guys anyway, but you all still found your way here:(
yeomei: yep.. its mine!! cos my best friend do it for me want!!
shimin: yep. relink lerhs.. go organize class outing leh.. haha!!

so i've reply all the long tahs already!! phew..

anyway, i'm having a long weekend. wanted to use this time to revise my work. but i doubt that its even possible. i dont think i can even finish the mountain hill of homework, including the E-Learning and not forgetting the 5 projects that we have and 4 is due on tuesday. Nice try la. I am sinking under this amount of homework. I dont even have time to revise for promos, yet its just around the corners. I really dont know how i will fare. i'm scared of retaining. its the biggest fear in me at the moment. argh!!

also, i will be going school in the late afternoon. cool right?? will have a national day parade ( but its not as grand as hougang sec) and also thanksgiving concert. yea!! most of the teachers will be performing. i'm so looking forward toward it. and also, we dont have to wear school uniform. muhaha!! but suddenly everyone seems to be at a lost, cos we all dunnoe what to wear.

me:why not we all wear knee-length shorts tmr la.
xin: ok lor!
yen:huh? but i dont have knee length one
me: you can wear your jeans then fold in until it reaches knee-length la
yen:hmm...
5 SECONDS LATER
yen:what the hell

everyone burst out laughing. we were like... haha!! no comments.

2008-08-05T05:29:00.000-07:00

i need to thank someone the beautifully setting up this blog. thats none other than my bestie OLIVIA PHUA of course. thanks a lot girl, you have always been my angel since i known you. so ya, i will use it wisely. hehe!!

sick

2008-08-03T22:12:00.000-07:00

it has been quite awhile since i last blogged. days, weeks seem to whizzed by. tiredness is what i have been feeling due to all the lessons and tests. and i fall sick. i was down. i hardly feel so sick before not counting the times when i had asthma attack but this time was different. i keep on breaking out in sweat. at first, it thought it was due to the hot climate but then found out that i was actually sick. just hope that i will get well soon!! anyway, i miss 1 day of school. i will use it wisely to catch up with my beauty sleep and studies too. hehe!! will be back in school tmr!!

Lost in the Night

2008-07-27T07:00:00.000-07:00

sat: had a long and productive day of pw. it was such a rare sight. but then something terrible happen on my way home which lead me to a decision. i'm not going there ever again. is this phobia?? fear?? or just being paranoid?? jia lat pointed to me a bus stop which i can take 43 home. i intended to check the board to see where the bus head to. but then, the bus came just when i reach the bus stop so my first thought was board the bus immediately. i was like: yea.. i will be reaching home soon and can head to bed in just a while. so, i closed my eyes and rested for a few minutes. then suddenly, i looked outside the window. it was all construction sites. my first instinct was. SHIT!! i think i've headed towards paya lebar. i went to confirm with the bus driver. i was horrified. but who can i blame? i can only blame myself for the carelessness. next, i cross the road intended to take 43 back to hougang. i thought i could also take 80 and would end up at hougang mall and could take a bus home easily from there. i boarded the bus unknowingly and ended up it was 24. i wounded up at some boundary road. i didnt even hear of it before. how was i suppose to get out of there. the fear crept u[p higher and higher within me. it was a super screwed up day for me. singapore just appear so big that night. i was lost in my own country. i was lost in the night. i will not forget the fear in me on that day as it had a huge impact on my life. i think i will remember it vividly for the years ahead.

sun: was a bit more cheerful:) went to do CIP at toa payoh stadium. me and lat have the slackiest job of all and ended up camwhoring throughout the day while others are busy doing job!! yep.. today, was abit paranoid about taking bus cos of what happen the night before but was assured after reading the board again and again and again.

another weekend burnt

2008-07-25T08:06:00.000-07:00

actually was quite looking forward to this weekend. cos i can sleep in till the afternoon which i am unable to in the past few weeks. last sat had pw lesson and sun had bball alumni match. had to pull myself out of the bed. very unwillingly. this weekend.. hais.. sat- more pw. and we have to hand in till chapter 5 on monday?? izzit possible after all?? we're at chapter 1 only. i hope so. we want to prove him wrong for looking down on us. my sun - had another CIP with bball. so basically i havent even recover from last week trauma and this week will be another tiring week. sometimes how i wish i can take a break away from jc life, away from pw, away from bball training. and be back in the white-and-blue uniform. will life be any better?? these days i keep having flashbacks of me and cliques in hougang sec. i really enjoy my carefree life then. not so much worries and not-so-tight deadlines. i'm not coping well. i really dont know what to do. i'm suffering. does anyone know??

Will Run

2008-07-23T10:07:00.000-07:00

i did my Will Run today as on the actual day (2 aug), i'm down with something. so had to run today. i run 15km in 1 hr 45 mins, which i think is a great accomplishment for me as i've never done exercise so hiong like this before. just keep on running thinking that it was because of charity and continued running although i felt like giving up a few times. luckily i didnt. heng arh!! Also, i need to thank my supporters who cheered for me while i'm running. without you guys cheering, i dont think i will be able to make it. so, THANKS GUYS!!

after that had some dinner. it was pure joke. cindy, hui ying and nicholas had me laughing throughout. i was like some siao cha bor la. purely ridiculous. hahas

need do homework already at this unearthly hours.

2008-07-21T09:45:00.000-07:00

yesterday was a super tired day. mayb due to the lack of sleep as what people said?? but quite impossible considering the fact that i actually slept for 10 hours straight the night before. mayb i had played too hard in the day( had a friendly match with all the various batches of seniors). It was super - tiring. i'm totally burned out. even feel asleep under the hot sun while matches are going on. so it proves how tired i am. unfortunately, we were trashed in ALL games. so sad!! but we will work harder!! yea!!

my first time

2008-07-19T08:32:00.000-07:00

people start to blog to remind them of their happy times. but its different for me. i find it a way to thrash out the mixed emotions filled in me.

my life is really horrible today. my brain did not rest at all. practically squeezing every brain juice out for pw. but what did i gain in return?? nothing!! i'm really depressed with myself, with my life. why did my life turn out his way? the only spare time i have was to sit down and chat with my friends while eating. and that is it.. i really have enough. i'm so stressed up by everything. i really dont know what to do.